the viva did not go very well im afraid... but thats all right i am improving. that is what really matters. as they say 'losing the battles, but winning the war'.its a battle for regaining my confidence and conviction --- both in my speech and action.
it might sound strange why an aligarhian is so bitter. well, its not without a reason. the place snatched away so much away from me. it will take a significant time for me to recover.i never understood why at AMU only the female students are expected to behave as 'proper muslims'. does islam not prescribe certain regulations for men too? why is it that a pair of jeans worn by a female draws so much of attention and contempt while for the males it is acceptable to wear them? why is it that the character of a female who speaks and walks confidently is attacked while the male who behaves similarly is hailed as an intellectual? i am bewildered by the double standards of these people. you want the female to be dressed up in an all covering black cloak and yet you want her to talk to you over the phone.a year or two back, a female student had her shawl snatched away by some boys on a bike inside the university premises ;the reason and the justification --- she was wearing jeans. the issue rocked the university and was talked about in all the national newspapers. the girl was denounced by everyone; even the students union, which instead of aiding her in taking action against the culprits, openly dismissed the incident as a 'cheap publicity stunt'. even more shocking was the statement on TV by one university lecturer who was of the opinion that 'decent girls' do not wear jeans.who are these people in the first place to judge our character and to speak for us? that too on the basis on what a girl wears.